Cause honey it's over

Since the time I got married and got my first apartment, Elaine and I have had people living with us off and on. Greg for a little while, one of the couples in our Bible study, Elaine's parents. This summer we are taking on two new boarders, my sister Joy and Jared’s girlfriend Megan. The first thing people ask us when we tell them is, “Won’t that be hard?” I actually like having people around like that. Yeah it’s somewhat limiting and yeah, it adds complications. But there is something to be said for living in community (I would like to modify that by saying living in a community of your choosing). It wouldn’t be fun to have someone live with you that you dislike or don’t know. Maybe it’s an attempt to re-create college because I liked it so much. I really don’t know. My abilities along the lines of introspection are not as developed as I had hoped.
We all know how isolated our society is. It’s unavoidable and I do nothing to change my own role in the extending isolation. I just think its interesting how, to most people, the idea of having other people live in your house is so foreign and unthinkable. We go to our jobs where we have work “friends” and then drive home to our neighborhoods where we don’t know the neighbors. I think the idea of an existential connection between all people is somewhat funny. I think we have all felt it at one time or another, standing a large crowd and instinctually feeling the way the choices made by one affect all to some degree. The feeling that we can understand each other's pains because we all have felt similarly. (The mood is encapsulated by the song Existentialism on Prom Night by Straylight Run and the associated music video). That said though, I think that view is merely looking at things to widely. Sure there is a brotherhood of men, but nobody in that crowd you are viewing knows you and would never notice that you were gone, nor care. Thus we are as individuals fundamentally alone. These two concepts, the brotherhood of man and the isolation of the individual, are really just looking at the same thing on different levels.
Besides the fact that I like having people live with us, sharing what I have is a ministry for me. It’s my way to help people where I can. A lot of people I know feel the need to go downtown to give the homeless food, and that and if they don’t do things of that nature, they don’t feel like they are serving others. I think we all are presented daily with the opportunity to serve others, and I really don’t think the relative depth of someone’s need makes the giving more or less valuable. Besides, the thing that gets me is what could I possibly offer the homeless guy downtown? A sandwich maybe. What good is that long term? I helped him for a couple hours and the need is still there. It just seems that a lot of people’s needs are out of proportion to my limited ability to give. I am not good with people, with words, or with thinking on my feet and I never have been. Let’s put it this way, I try to be as honest as I can and I am logical to a fault, a lot of questions that would be matter of course to most, become linguistic nooses to me.