Loosing the fall.

Tonight was another of those nights that I really wanted to go to a party. In theory the party would be similar to the costume party I just had. On nights like this I would love nothing better than to spend an evening with my friends from home and my friends from California, with everybody drinking and everybody loud as hell and laughing. I guess sometimes it just feels good to forget about what’s going on and just loss your self in loud friends or loud music. A part of me will always miss the high school parties and the endless nights in college with video games and movies. It was kind of a rough day for me. My job I am supposed to have has yet to give me hours. And though I know the reasons are probably completely valid just unknown to me it is still discouraging. Sweet I am hired……I am hired right? Sooo can I come by the store….? So tomorrow I need to do something about actually finding a way to work the job I have. Come on Petco…you said we were friends. Anyway, in the meantime I continue to look for jobs that actually would allow me to use all that school I worked so damn hard for. (Ok I mostly worked damn hard for…..there were those first two years of college). So in the meantime my parents have hired me on to do yard work for them so I can pay my bills. I am grateful for the opportunity but I feel really really pathetic having to take the job. Though I am able to make light of all this mess it has still be a very discouraging series of setbacks and failures. Oh well remember me in your prayers.
Tonight although I was unable to attend a party of my choosing or go to a rave or a post-punk show and I went to my bible study instead. And I had a good time, though sometimes I still feel awkward and shy around everybody its good to see them all. And the joking banter I had hoped to find Rob graciously provided, that guy cracks me up. Thirteen o’clock and a ferret….a ferret with an electric drill… That’s all I got. You see what I did with Rob was I took all the main jokes from our chat and put them together. See it’s all in one sentence. What I did Rob was I combined them. See its funny ‘cause…
You know I still am not quite sure what to write in these blogs I have heard Steve writes movie reviews and Eric writes about his life. Ryan’s last post to my knowledge was a laudable defense of To Kill a Mocking Bird. I guess mine will be like one of those abridged Christmas letters people send out (“Everyone here is fine. We have a new address from last year because of the terrible fire. James is playing the part of a possum in the new school play etc. etc.”) The thing about my life right now is I have no annoying or, in Eric’s case hot, coworkers to deal with. Currently it is I with a rake engaged in a silent and losing war against the fall. I guess the job thing is pretty big. I did find a job doing entry-level field biology with the city and I really really hope they hire me. Other than that though …oh my wife is going to bed. So I guess if we are all lucky and very very good the blog fairy will delete this post and slip a quarter into our computers hard-drive.
If you have skimmed this or actually read it I thought I would direct you to some other blogs that I am sure would be of more interest than mine.
http://oneagainstthebes.blogspot.com/ Belongs to Ryan. He is easily one of the most intelligent, funniest and coolest guys I know. I don’t think I have ever told him but we all quietly wish we were more like him….I guess that makes me his sidekick …damn.
http://ctrlaltdel-bud.blogspot.com/ Belongs to Eric. He is one of the most loyal friends I have ever had, he is solid and dependable and an all around really sweet guy. They are both close friends of mine and I hope you enjoy their blogs. Now I go forth to wash dishes.